Yep, I’m struggling. In the past two days I’ve felt anxious, melancholy, overwhelmed, and down on myself. The damn self-criticism is subtle but definitely there. It gets me every time – I really need to get a better handle on it.
I miss my blog time. I miss reading and commenting on your blogs, and I miss getting your perspectives on my struggles. Maybe most of all, I miss having the dedicated time to sit down BY MYSELF, IN TOTAL QUIET and do all of my blog stuff.
The kids and I are heading out of town for about 12 days. It’s great because I’ll have help with the kids and some time to myself, if I’m proactive about planning it. It’s not-so-great because I’ll be with my parents, and we all know how that can trigger lots of feelings, thoughts, and memories. It feels sort of like running an emotional marathon – I have to build up my stamina so that my time with them doesn’t undo months of working through my issues.
I feel whiny and pathetic at the moment so I’ll keep this short. I hope to have more time to catch up next week.
As always, thanks for reading. Seeing your little page views on my stats page is a bright spot in my day. 🙂