A year and a half ago, there was a dramatic event in our lives which rocked our world. I could downplay it by pointing out that my husband and the kids and I are all healthy, that it isn’t anything we can’t overcome, that there have been unexpected silver linings. Nonetheless, it completely rocked our world – it was one of those times when the earth suddenly shifts on its axis.
My husband and I have spent the past year and a half redefining ourselves and trying to come up with a new life plan. It’s been daunting to say the least. And of course during this time, I’ve also been struggling a great deal with my depression – understanding it, managing it, coming to terms with it.
Things in our life are still very much up in the air. I’m someone who likes a PLAN. Preferably written down as a list or sorted in columns in an Excel spreadsheet. This extended time of limbo has been a very real challenge for me, and it has likely made my mental health work even harder.
Universe, I understand that it was time for me to learn some very important lessons about change. To learn that the ground will always be shifting beneath my feet. To learn that I can’t get too stuck in the times that are difficult, or the times that are rosy. None of those times are permanent.
Those lessons have been hard for me, and I know it hasn’t been pretty to watch me navigate such unfamiliar territory. But here’s the thing:
I’M OVER IT. DONE. FINITO.
I’ve gotten the lessons and I promise I’ll work on applying them to all aspects of my life. So can you finally send a smidgeon more certainty our way? Let us off the hook for a little bit? We’ve been doing the hard work – tangibly and intangibly – and we’d really appreciate some support from your end. We need to be able to breathe a little easier, if only for a short while.
Oh, and one more thing: Don’t go messing with my blogging friends either. They need a break too. 🙂