I’ve been “off” for a day or two. You know what I mean, I’m sure. Not really, really off…just a bit off. Enough that I notice a little more self-criticism, a little more self-doubt, a little more of the symptoms I have with my depression. Again, nothing life shattering, but enough to trigger the thought of “Am I at the top of the slippery slope again?”
I’m scared. Scared that my depression might be starting to creep in again. Scared that I might lose the momentum of the past couple of weeks when I’ve felt better than I have in a very long time.
I’m trying to think of this as just a blip – and blips are temporary. But I still worry somewhere…and that worry can be so tiring. I want to stop worrying and paying so much attention to what’s going on in my head!